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Funny how, at times, we let some people enter our ribcage and grow flowers up to our collarbones and when they leave, we give them flowers with thorns picked out of its branches.

n.m

I'm taking a break.

Ma said, "One day, someone is going to come and affect your life in the most possibly enormous way that it feels like there's a hole inside your chest when you're saying goodbye to them. It's going to affect you in such a good way that it becomes a bad point in your life. From there, is what matters the most; the way you deal with the situation."

I think that is what's happening to me. That when EXO came two years ago, I've been equipped with so many happiness that I feel like I'm flying high to the sky. I am a bad person and I never feel like I deserve to be happy. That when I'm happy, a part of my life is going to crumble down six feet underground and hurts me.

I am a bad person and being with EXO even if we are only connected through the virtual world is more than enough for me. I, myself, don't suit being in the sky as high as the twelve boys. It's time for me to come down to Earth and reevaluate my life and be a better person. Jongin once said, "If you don't study, don't even think of me." And, I'm going to take his words with depth.

Thank you for all the memories. I'm taking a break for a while. I see you when I see you.